Living Life in Between

Like today. I feel very grounded and calm. The day started out like that and has continued that way. In fact, even last night as I was preparing for bed, the usual chatter in my mind was gone. The last week has been a whirlwind of sleepless nights, past life memories, between life memories, increased spiritual contact and experiences and an increase in guides. It was as if some energy on earth shifted and sent me reeling. Then, suddenly, it all stopped. The day I really noticed a change was on my birthday. That morning, as I was preparing to leave for my auditing session, I heard Steven say, "You made it". I figured he was talking about my birthday and I thought back to him, "Yeah, I guess that is a big deal, isn't it?" Then he nodded and said, "Well done". At that moment, I noticed the energy to my left, the group of spirits who I assume are also guide. They applauded. I was a bit shocked and then thought, "I guess it was not for sure that I ...

I keep being amazed by the things I am remembering. Today I remembered the moments before I entered into this body. I had always remembered seeing Earth and feeling drawn to come down into a body, but I could not remember anything more. Well, I did today. I remembered walking along a path with a woman who I instantly recognized as "Mom" but not from this life but maybe another one but I cannot place the life at this time. She had shoulder length brown hair that was very smooth and pulled back from around her face. She was smiling and very happy. Can still see her clearly. She was excited and encouraging. The place where we were was very bright and looked like Earth with green grass, trees and blue sky. I could see benches along the path that were bright white and the walkway we were walking on was lined with a similar white stone edging. The woman walked with me to a domed shaped building. It was not very large and seemed almost out of place as it was just sitting at th...

I had trouble sleeping last night. Usually I have three to four guides around me at all times. They don’t bother me or distract me in any way; I just know they are there. Well, this time I noticed I had twelve. In my past experience, whenever I noticed twelve guides around me something very good and life changing happened. For example, on the day I met my husband there were twelve and they hung around for a couple of months after that. It was one of the happiest periods of my life. It also happened when I got pregnant with my daughter and my son.   So when I noticed there were so many around me it peaked my interest. I wondered what was going on. With that thought I knew something was going to happen at 3am. This upset me because I took it that I would not go to sleep until then and I knew I had to get sleep. So, I took vitamin B1 to help my mind slow down and tried to relax. This was around midnight. I ended up very relaxed and near sleep. Suddenly I felt my whole body vibratin...

"I am you ". Today the words Steven has said to me from the beginning finally make more sense.  When I first heard them I thought they were confirmation that I had lost my mind. Eventually when I heard them I began to wonder what they meant. This was what I thought it meant only a few weeks ago: Our guides are us, just the us that knows and remembers. They are a part of ourselves, or our energy (we are huge!) that is there to help us remember our path so we stay on it, etc. Think about it this way: when you play a game such as Monopoly or chess, you have a game piece that you move around and about the board. Well, our body is the game piece but a very sophisticated one - one that can rationalize and reason, remember and feel, etc. So, our body is the game piece and to make it more interesting we picked a body that was 1. alive or a biological being and 2. has reactive responses to life such as fear, anger, etc. These emotions are actually not something we as spi...

I never felt any different from anyone else growing up. I was a normal little girl with a vivid imagination and the normal family issues. I was afraid of the dark and often had vivid dreams but nothing out of the ordinary, really. So I have often wondered about my abilities. Did I use to see spirit and just not remember? Was the ability always there and, somehow, over time, it got explained away as "imagination" or "not real"? That is what I have been told - that all children are born with the gift of "sight" and over time they are told by adults, who cannot see spirit as a child can, that it is the child's imagination. Over time, the child doubts what they see to the point that they don't see it anymore. Eventually, they are completely shut off from the world of spirit to where it only shows itself in their dreams and in odd occasions of deja vu and instances of shared thoughts. I remember some instances in my youth where my vivid imagination ...

I had a day to myself today so I did my best to enjoy it even though it is 100+ degrees outside. I decided to head to the beauty salon and get some much needed highlights since I have been neglecting myself since having Orren six months ago. As I was sitting in the chair chatting with my hair stylist, Shae, I felt the familiar presence of spirit to my right. He was saying, "Mom" and pointing to Shae. I listened, curious. It has been a long time since spirit has approached me in a public setting, three years or so at least, so I wanted to see what he wanted. He pointed at her again and said, "Mom" and then he pointed to his own eyes and I got a sense that he had cataracts when he passed, either that or they were a very strange, cloudy blue. He had a strong presence and was quite tall, or at least seemed to be. He stood just in front of me, off to my right side and back just slightly. He seemed intent on me saying something to Shae. I didn't want to. I spent t...

You know the feeling, or you should. If you remember what it was like to be a child, then you know the feeling. It wells up from inside you at times and makes you feel like giggling for no reason. It is a feeling of excitement and anticipation, again for what seems like no reason. But there is a reason - life. Life is the reason. Do you remember the feeling? Can you bring it forth any time you want? I couldn't. But I can now. It began when my son was born. I had been warned by Steven that the time would come. I had asked one day, "When will I get back on my spiritual path?" Steven answered me with, "After your son is born". This was a good while before I even considered having two children. I believe that at the time I had just gotten pregnant with my daughter. As I usually do, I put the information on a mental "shelf" at the back of my mind and forgot about it. If I asked the question again, I got the same answer, so I just waited. I knew I would ha...