Living Life in Between

Last night I heard a female guide to my left. I even got a glimpse of blonde hair. I didn't pay much attention other than to notice she was there and to hear her comment. I was feeling very blessed last night and thinking, "I am very blessed" and she said, "You have a good life" and nodded. I agreed and went on to enjoy the evening think about how wonderful of a life I have. For me to be in such a calm state is odd considering how hectic this week and last week have been. I don't know if Mercury is in retrograde or if I am just going through a transition period, but I have been very moody and negative about my life lately. It has been causing me to reevaluate everything and think about what it is that I would like to do next. Problem is, I am not really sure and even if I were, most of the things would be difficult to near impossible with two young children running around. I realized that I have really gotten everything I want in life when I have asked f...

My new guide seems to be all around me, but I am noticing that I turn to my left instead of my right now. Steven seems to be gone, but maybe he isn't. Maybe he is just gone for the time being. I keep remembering a night when I was sitting on my front porch taking in the evening silence. Out of the blue Steven said to me, "You will get a new guide soon". I looked to see if there was a guide there, but only felt a presence on my left and did not try to get to know who was there. The presence on my left disappeared soon after anyway, so I soon forgot about it. I paid little heed to what Steven told me. I have been told before about new guides. I figured this was no different. Steven was always there when the other guides came to help, so I didn't worry about him leaving. He has always been there when I look for him. Besides, I try not to put too much importance on who my guides are or where they are. I have noticed they switch quite frequently. Some I take time to ge...

I can't find Steven. Two nights ago I was outside sitting and taking in the cool breezes and silence and pondering over a strange feeling I have been having this week when I heard a voice say to me, "You are safe". The voice seemed to be coming from my left at first but when I focused on it more, it really just seemed to come from all around me. I was a bit worried because I thought it was a spirit just coming by to say hi and in the evenings I really prefer to have only my guides around me, it makes it simpler and less distracting. So I did as I usually do when I feel there may be more spirit around than I am comfortable with and said, "Only my guides and angels around me at this time". It always woks to say that. I again heard, "You are safe". The feeling I have been having this week - a feeling that something is different and changing around me in the world or perhaps even closer to home - had me on edge as it was, and now hearing this new voice...

I have spent most of the last nine years since my spiritual awakening trying to figure out if what I experience is real. I do this by asking others with similar gifts what their experiences are and tell them my own in hopes that they will recognize and validate my experiences. Problem is, when I tell them what I have experienced they will look  at me as if they are thinking, "You made that up". It has been difficult for me to find anyone who has had similar experiences to mine to the extent that they developed their abilities seemingly spontaneously with the help of their guide. It is even harder to find anyone with a close relationship with their guide. Either I find people who have nothing close to what I have or I find people who have completely lost touch with reality. I m beginning to think that maybe I will never find someone like me. The woman who emailed me a couple of days ago about needing help with her spiritual awaking (the one who lives in the same town as me...