The Goat Will Bite You
Well, I got what I asked for.
As is usual, I slowly became lucid in my dreams. The last dream I remember, I was in bed at my Mom's house in my old room from high school. Someone was in the bed with me, but I don't know who it was. I remember I was feeling sexual but did not want to wake up the other person. So, I went into the bathroom. As soon as I made the decision to go into the bathroom and take care of my sexual desires, my root chakra started buzzing and brought me into full lucidity.
Home Sweet Home
As soon as I became more lucid I found myself walking outside of a large house. I remember thinking about landscaping and how we needed to move out the huge rocks and fill it in with dirt and grass (think I was considering this for my own house). Then, I glanced across the way and saw a familiar green patch of grass. It was an old burn pile my father's use to use that was near the house I grew up in. I remember thinking that I must be close to the house. When I looked for the house I was pleased to see my old childhood house. I headed toward it to go inside (at this point I was fully lucid and in astral). I remember worrying that I would bother the new residents. When I got inside I lost most of my vision. It was as if the lights turned off. I looked around and saw the outline of furniture. I was excited because I recognized our old living room. I decided to look around more, but my body pulled me back to it.
Immediately I came right back out of it and back into the scene. I recall that when I came out of my body I was in my bed at home and then I just "popped" into my old childhood home. I was near the dining area and had a memory of the old fireplace. Although I still couldn't see, I headed towards where it should have been, feeling my way around with my hands. I felt something smooth and cold and realized I must have been touching the granite floor of the foyer. Excited, I continued to feel around to the side where the brick of the fire place was. I found the brick and followed it up to the mantle of the fireplace. When I did this, my vision suddenly returned and I saw photographs in frames in front me. They were of me and my family at various times in our lives. I remember being so happy to see them and enjoying the memory of those times in my life. The pictures were in vivid color but they were not pictures I recall seeing in real life. Instead they seemed like pictures of my memories.
I was pulled back into my body again. Undeterred, I left my body quickly and went right back to the scene of my old house. Again my vision was gone. All I could see was outlines of the area, as if the lights were off. I was talking to someone at this time about my old memories, though I do not recall getting a response. I explored the living and dining area of my old house. I recall seeing the windows and light coming in them and then moving to the hall way. The hallway was also dark and I hesitated before going in. I did not know if I should go in. I wanted to go into my parent's master bedroom. I headed in and it was dark in there as well, but I could sense the bed in the center. I had memories of the room and gleefully fell upon the bed for a moment. I remember thinking of the huge walk-in closet and reveling in the moment of just being back there. At that point I recall being pulled back towards my body and being in the black nothingness. I immediately set my intention to return and was back out of my body.
When I came back to the scene of my old house I decided to explore my old bedroom that I shared with my little sister. It was dark inside and I bumped into something. I soon realized it was my old bed in the corner and I remember yelling out to my sister (who I didn't see and who wasn't there to my knowledge), "Hey, its my bed! Remember?"
At that point I returned to by body again. I left it immediately and went right back to the scene. This time I was looking at the hallway and there was a yellow glow of light coming from the master bedroom. So, I decided to go back into the master bedroom. My vision suddenly was back and vividly clear and there, standing in front of me, was my little sister just as she had looked when we lived there. I could see her blond hair and her exact features. I was ecstatic and knelt down in font of her. I said, "If you are not really my sister then leave". She just looked at me kinda shy-like and didn't go anywhere. It was almost like she didn't recognize me. Realizing she was likely my sister, and not caring if she wasn't, I reached over and grabbed her in a huge bear huge (I haven't seen my sister in over 6 years). I told her I was so happy to see her and that I loved her. I got very emotional and almost cried.
The excitement of the moment pulled me back into my body yet again. I didn't hesitate to leave it as soon as I was pulled towards it. Again I was in the hallway. As I stood there I heard my guide say, "The goat will bite you". I remember thinking/saying to him, "What?" I got no response. Perplexed I decided to continue exploring my old home. As soon as I did, my vision was back and I found myself standing in the living room again. This time, however, it was fully illuminated and there were hundreds of tiny, Valentine's cards hanging from the ceiling. I stopped and looked at one closely and then pulled it down. It was a child's Valentine's card, you know like the ones you give to your classmates in elementary school? I read who it was to and it was to me. Then I read who it was from and it was from my Mom. I smiled and then sniffed the card. It smelled like strawberries (I guess it was one of those scratch-n-sniff cards?). I looked back at all the cards hanging from the ceiling. It was kind of surreal and pretty.
I wandered around the living room for a while. I again saw pictures of my family. These were hanging on the walls. They were so vivid and I remember feeling so much love for them. Strangely, I do not remember seeing my father in any of them (which doesn't surprise me). Then, out of nowhere, I saw this woman standing in front of me. She was my height and my age and, well, she looked exactly like me! I got very close to her to examine her. She did not move, though she was looking at me. I noticed her face change the closer I looked at it. At first she seemed to resemble me somewhat but the closer I looked, the more she looked like me. I recall that her face seemed mottled with age spots at first but that it cleared up and her complexion lightened as I examined the similarities between us. I remember talking to her saying things like, "Who are you? Are you me? Wow! You look like me!" Now that I think back to this experience I realize that she was a bit taller than me because I had to stand on my tip toes to look at her face closely.
I was again pulled back to my body. I remember thinking/knowing, "I will keep going back" and I also had a moment where I wondered if this was reality. Maybe I was really awake leaving my body at will? I remember thinking how cool that would be but also how confusing. Then I was back in the living room standing in front of the fireplace where I had just seen a person who resemble me. She was no longer there, though and I do not remember "seeing" vividly, but instead seemed to have a black out in vision. However, I think this was merely a reflection of my thinking at the time as I was considering my experiences thus far.
At that point I again heard, "The goat will bite you". Annoyed at this strange, cryptic message, I began telling my guide what I thought of the message. "What is that suppose to mean? Why do you always give me messages like that?" As if in response, I got a thought that I was suppose to interpret the symbols and learn from them (I did not hear my guide or even see him but the thought was just there as if my own). More annoyed I said, "I'm not good at that! (almost yelling) How am I suppose to know if I am interpreting them right? What if I get it all wrong?? (I am yelling at this point).
As I tried to figure out what the hell the message "The goat will bite you" meant, I noticed two people standing in front of me. One was a man and the other was a woman. They were just standing there just like my sister had stood there, as if they didn't see me. I did not recognize them and they seemed short to me, though they appeared to be around the same age as me. The man had short cropped brown hair and was very clean cut and normal looking. The woman had blond hair that was cut in a layer cut like in the early 80s, the Jane Fonda look. Both seemed familiar to me and now, as I reflect upon seeing them, I realized they appeared exactly as the images of the guides in the photo I was shown in a vision not long ago, especially the woman. I asked the man if he was my guide. I got no answer. He did say something to me, but I can't remember what he said now. All I remember is that I got a feeling of annoyance, as if he told me something cryptic again. I then wondered allowed if the woman was also one of my guides. I got no response from her but I remember feeling like they were both my guides. I left them standing there and turned towards the living area, still irritated about the cryptic message I received.
At this point I came back to my body. Still a bit irritated, I decided to stay and when I settled fully back into my body, all the irritation left me and I immediately said to my guides, "Thank you!" I was very happy to have gotten such a long, extensive astral experience.
Back to Work
Oddly enough, I guess I wasn't done because I somehow found myself back in a lucid dream turned astral. This time I was in a building with a bunch of other people. I realized it was the scene of my return to work. A man who I worked with last year was there (he left his position and won't be back this year). I remember asking if anyone knew what I would be doing for my job. He told me, "I don't know, but I will help you". He also commented that he was not told his office would be moved and I heard many others chime in saying theirs had also been moved. I remember looking at the man (who resembled the man from before), listening and realizing no one was any better off than me, and then moving past him towards a woman. I assumed she was my assistant but now, thinking back on the experience, I realize she was the same woman from my last experience (above), but her hair was a bit darker, though still in the Jane Fonda style. She walked with me along the hallway. In the center was a long, brown table that seemed never to end. Different people were sitting along it. I went past all of them, talking to her but now I can't remember what we were talking about except that it had to do with my concerns of returning to work on Friday.
Just a quick note here: I had asked my guides prior to going to sleep to help me figure out how I would get through this next year as I am very concerned about being pregnant in such a negative work place.
As I walked along with my guide, I felt the familiar pull back to my body. Shocked that I had yet again gone out of body, the whole scene of my previous experiences came back to me quickly. I then heard, "It will be alright". It took me a while to get a grip with reality. Everything had felt so real and leaving my body had been so easy that it was hard to imagine that I wouldn't just leave my body again right then and there.
It took me a while to remember everything from these astral experience, but I think I remembered everything exactly as I experienced it except for a few conversations here and there. I recall that when I returned to my body that I didn't go into my body, it was more like I hovered near it. I wish I had thought to improve my energy and clarity, but I didn't. It really felt like I was being assisted to keep returning. I just wish I knew what the message "The goat will bite you" means. Now all it seems to do is make me laugh!
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