Living Life in Between

Recently I have been having very vivid dreams involving people from my past. I sometimes remember the dreams, but most of the time I only remember the person/persons and the theme of the dream. The people in the dreams were people I had not thought about in ages and so I would be perplexed: Why am I dreaming about someone and the time they were in my life when I have already healed and moved on from that experience?  At first I thought it meant I needed to reach out to these people. Unfortunately, I didn't know how. I had no email, address or phone numbers for most of them. I did do some digging and was able to contact two. One was simple - I just connected via one of the many forms of social media and networks available and when this person accepted I knew that 1. they were OK, and 2. my dreams was unfounded and there was no lingering residual anger or need of healing on their part. Whew! Relief! The second person was not so simple. I found a way to contact them - an old ema...

Recently my mother develop intense back pain that had her in tears and barely able to walk. She asked me for healing but I was too busy and kept putting it off. Then one night she came to visit me. I remember thinking "I should give her healing". As soon as I had the thought my hands began to tingle and get hot. I decided to ask her and she eagerly agreed. By the time I put my hands over her aching back I could feel heat rush up and through my body and into my hands. My upper body also got very hot and my typically cold hands and feet were pulsating with energy. I could see the dark areas and inflammation in my mother's physical aura in my mind's eye. It was bad and the energy was rushing in so fast that knew it was needed. My mother commented that it felt like my hands were on her, but they weren't, they were about three inches above her. She also said she could feel heat in areas that I was not even near, like the bottom of her feet and her legs. I kept my ...

For about a month I have been seeing geckos of all sizes around and in my house. The first sighting came late at night as my family and I drove home in the rain. As we opened our garage door at least a dozen of the tiny lizards scattered up and into the garage. I remember commenting about how many there were. As time passed I began noticing them here and there, mostly hanging around the outside lights of our house looking to catch a meal. One night I almost stepped on a baby one in my house. I quickly tried to catch it but it was fast, hopping (not running) away from me like a flea. It was really hard to catch but I finally got it. Just in time, too because my 20 month old son was trying to step on it (he thought it was a bug). I caught it and cupped it in my hand and peered down at it. It was so tiny and nearly translucent, its tan colored skin so thin and fragile. I let my daughter and son see it and then let it go outside. I have always thought geckos were beautiful creatures and ...

The title of this post is for laughs. Those of you who know how strange guides can be, will understand the humor in it. Those of you who are unfamiliar with the link between guides and water, I will explain. For some reason, guides like to make themselves known when their charge is taking a shower or a bath. I have been told it has something to do with the water and its ability to augment whatever energy it touches. We all know that electricity and water don't mix because water is a very good conductor of electricity. In the same way, it is a very good conductor for Spirit. Not only is a nice, relaxing bath or a quick shower a great opportunity for our guides to communicate with us because of us being in contact with water, but we are also alone without the daily distractions of life which normally would interfere with communication. When I first met my guides, I was often bombarded with messages the minute I took my evening shower. Sometimes I was caught off guard and initiall...

Believe it or not, everyone knows to a degree what is going to happen to them in this life. Some of us are blessed/cursed to remember more than others. That is just the way we planned it, though. Our level of amnesia is individual and controllable. Yes, controllable. You don't believe me? Well, I didn't believe it either, until I started remembering. How did I remember, you may ask? Well, I just looked. How did I look? I asked questions of myself. And YES, I got answers! This is where it gets complicated, though. The physical mind is full of booby traps. They are designed to keep us safe but as a side effect these booby traps also keep us from remembering. It is only a physical body thing. We as Spirit are capable of knowing and remembering anything we like. We are similarly able to forget and "not know" anything we like. The physical body acts as a barrier to ourselves, however, increasing the challenges of the game of life. We come into the body knowing this. Our ...

     Years ago, not longer after I met my guide, Steven, I went through a phase of asking tons of questions. Who is God? Is God real? What will happen in the next fifty years? Will there be another Civil War? Will there be another World War? Why are we here? Why can't I go Home? The questions went on. I got answers. Some I have shared, others I am not sure I will ever share with anyone. Along with the questions above, I asked questions about myself, specifically, Will I ever be happy? When? What will be the happiest time in my life? I got answers very quickly. I didn't trust them, though. I was told by others who had connected with their guides to not ask questions about my own future because "it would be inaccurate and unreliable". Their warnings turned out to be founded as I ran into my own ego whenever I tried to get future information for my self. However, just because I knew not to trust the information, didn't mean I didn't ask anyway. I knew...

  Exhaustion : "This is the portrait of one whose whole life energy has been depleted in his efforts to keep fueling the enormous and ridiculous machine of self-importance and productivity. He has been so busy "keeping it all together" and "making sure everything runs smoothly", that he has forgotten to really rest. No doubt he can't allow himself to be playful. To abandon his duty for a trip to the beach could mean the whole structure might come tumbling down. The message of this card is not just about being a workaholic, though. It is about all the ways in which we set up safe but unnatural routines for ourselves and, by doing so, keep the chaotic and spontaneous away from our doors. Life isn't a business to be managed, it's a mystery to be lived. It's time to tear up the time-card, break out of the factory, and take a little trip into the uncharted. Your work can flow more smoothly from a relaxed state of mind". ~ OSHO Z...

  “Go ahead and do what you really love to do! Do nothing else! You have so little time. How can you think of wasting a moment doing something for a living you don’t like to do? What kind of a living is that? That is not a living, that is a dying!” ~ Neale Donald Walsh I asked myself today, "Do I like my job?" My answer was "No". Then I asked myself, "What do I enjoy doing?" My first thought was "Singing". Oh how I love to sing! Always have. Then I considered how I could not make a good living singing. I always think that. I probably could make a decent living as a singer, but I have defeated myself on that dream. It is a dead dream. I didn't want to focus on a dead dream, so I wondered, "What is it about singing that I like?" I knew it was the attention; the feeling I get from my audience when I am singing. First of all, everyone is listening and looking at Me . That is a wonderfully uplifting and validating feel...

In the last few weeks I have been drawn to explore my past, specifically parts of my life that I have thought little about in the last four years. It all started a few weeks ago when I received four requests for mediumship in the span of two days. When I sat down to connect with Spirit, I found myself struggling to connect and when I did connect it was difficult to get information. Something felt off , but I couldn't put my finger on it. I went ahead and sent out all of the readings via email and waited for responses. In the end, three of the four people who requested mediumship responded that the mediumship reading I gave them was inaccurate, specifically that those in Spirit who came through to me for them were unrecognizable. I was devastated. In my ten years of giving mediumship readings I have only rarely been wrong (maybe 5% of the time) and only occasionally not been able to connect to Spirit (this has happened 3 times total). To have three out of four mediumship readin...

Last night I had a conversation that reminded me of just how persistent and resourceful Spirit is. A friend and I were talking about an issue she has been plagued with for many years. Her father passed away from an illness and she had promised him she would be there by his side so he would not be alone. Her father had always told her he wanted the death of a Shaman and she had agreed to help him achieve that but had been unable to get the hospital to release him so that he could pass away peacefully at home. One day, she had left his bedside in the hospital and gone down the hall with her husband when she felt him leave his body. In a panic, she rushed back to his bedside only to find that he had indeed already crossed over. Her grief at losing him was overwhelming but her guilt for not being there when he passed was more intense than any other emotion involved in his death. She felt she was a bad person for not being there for her father, so much so that she had convinced herself...

I often am asked this question whenever the topic of my spiritual gifts and abilities comes up in conversations with friends, family and acquaintances. Some don't even bother asking the question for worry of feeling they will look stupid, assuming they should already know what a spiritual awakening is, but this is not true. I did not know what a spiritual awakening was even when it was happening to me! According to  wikipedia , "a spiritual awakening usually involves a realization or opening to a sacred dimension of reality and may or may not be a religious experience. Often a spiritual awakening has lasting effects upon one's life. The term "spiritual awakening" may be used to refer to any of a wide range of experiences including being born again , near-death experiences , and mystical experiences such as liberation and enlightenment ". I chose to use this definition because it fits what I experienced. I find that most people I encounter define ...

I have been making dream boards to assist me in manifesting the things I want in life since 2006. A friend of mine introduced me to the book The Secret and it inspired me to create my own dream board and see if it worked. Well it did! I got everything I put on the board within the time frame specified. I took some time off of making anymore dream boards since I was a bit overwhelmed by how well mine worked and needed some time to adjust to all the change it brought into my life. When I was ready, last year I created another one, this time in conjunction with my husband. That board expired this month, exactly a year from its conception. When I reviewed all the goals on it, most of mine did not come true but all but one of my husband's did! So, I learned a valuable lesson - don't make a dream board in conjunction with another person! This time I will make my own and have him make his own. I believe that the reason all of his goals/dreams came to fruition is because I tend to p...

Is there such a thing as a second spiritual awakening? As it was, I had not heard of spiritual awakenings until I went through my own in February 2003, or at least that is when I think it started (upon recalling many of my life events in 2002, I now am pretty certain it started much earlier). My spiritual awakening started with a bang. I did one simple meditation and the next thing I knew I had my spirit guide talking to me and could "see" other people's pasts and futures as well as speak to those who had died. Within a month's time I was reeling from the impact it was having upon me. I thought I was crazy and could not for the life of me figure out what was happening. The next five years of my life were spent adjusting to the changes. I went through horrible bouts of depression, sleeplessness, isolation and despair. I often wished I were dead and begged my guides to take me "Home", though I really had no idea what "Home" was, I just knew that...

Have you ever had the feeling that life is not real ? I have. I feel it almost every day. Maybe it is just a part of being me . Maybe not. The other night I was looking up at the stars thinking to myself, So we live on Earth which is located in the Milky Way which is just one of hundreds of thousands of other galaxies in the universe and I tried to visualize what that looked like. It was immense. Then I wondered, "What is beyond the universe?" and I went blank. I couldn't visualize it. I couldn't even come close. The only thought I had, and I quickly pushed it away as nonsense, was that outside of the universe was me . Incomprehensible, yet it felt true. I was instantly reminded of the movie Men in Black , specifically Orion's belt and how on that tiny cat collar existed an itty, bitty universe contained within a ball. Then at the end of the movie the aliens are all playing a game of Marbles with multiple tiny universes, knocking them this way and that, enjoyi...

This was a dream I had a few weeks ago and it was so detailed and real-like that I still remember every bit of it. I am convinced that it is connected to a past life of mine, probably a looooong time ago on some distant and now extinct planet. Then again, there is always the possibility that it is just a dream created in my subconscious as I slept but with all the past lives I have remembered and my conviction that we are all very, very old souls who have lived numerous lives, I am convinced that this dream is composed of real memories. The first scene of the dream opened with me (a young, short woman with shoulder length brown hair) and a group of people who I considered family but who were not connected to me by blood. We were on assignment in a new land (planet), sent to figure out why communication with the inhabitants had suddenly stopped. We came to a large lake that was so big we couldn't see the other side. Across it was a bridge but it was not a typical bridge, it was ...

In my years of conversations with Steven and in my often frustrated state, I would ask Steven, "Why are we here?" And he always answers, "To learn". And in deeper conversations he would explain that we as spiritual beings are here on Earth to experience life in a body. This information always set well with me except I didn't understand why we as spiritual beings would be so interested in living in a human body. Surely we have many more exciting prospects in the universe than a human body? So I was often left still wondering, "Why?" Last night, while having an in-depth, spiritual conversation with my husband, I suddenly got the answer to my question. It was one of those times when I feel that I somehow connected with my higher self and channeled information from that part of myself without really knowing I was doing it. It just flowed out of me in response to a conversation my husband and I were having about a calmness I had been feeling for qu...