Living Life in Between

Is there such a thing as a second spiritual awakening? As it was, I had not heard of spiritual awakenings until I went through my own in February 2003, or at least that is when I think it started (upon recalling many of my life events in 2002, I now am pretty certain it started much earlier). My spiritual awakening started with a bang. I did one simple meditation and the next thing I knew I had my spirit guide talking to me and could "see" other people's pasts and futures as well as speak to those who had died. Within a month's time I was reeling from the impact it was having upon me. I thought I was crazy and could not for the life of me figure out what was happening. The next five years of my life were spent adjusting to the changes. I went through horrible bouts of depression, sleeplessness, isolation and despair. I often wished I were dead and begged my guides to take me "Home", though I really had no idea what "Home" was, I just knew that

Have you ever had the feeling that life is not real ? I have. I feel it almost every day. Maybe it is just a part of being me . Maybe not. The other night I was looking up at the stars thinking to myself, So we live on Earth which is located in the Milky Way which is just one of hundreds of thousands of other galaxies in the universe and I tried to visualize what that looked like. It was immense. Then I wondered, "What is beyond the universe?" and I went blank. I couldn't visualize it. I couldn't even come close. The only thought I had, and I quickly pushed it away as nonsense, was that outside of the universe was me . Incomprehensible, yet it felt true. I was instantly reminded of the movie Men in Black , specifically Orion's belt and how on that tiny cat collar existed an itty, bitty universe contained within a ball. Then at the end of the movie the aliens are all playing a game of Marbles with multiple tiny universes, knocking them this way and that, enjoyi