Living Life in Between

     Years ago, not longer after I met my guide, Steven, I went through a phase of asking tons of questions. Who is God? Is God real? What will happen in the next fifty years? Will there be another Civil War? Will there be another World War? Why are we here? Why can't I go Home? The questions went on. I got answers. Some I have shared, others I am not sure I will ever share with anyone. Along with the questions above, I asked questions about myself, specifically, Will I ever be happy? When? What will be the happiest time in my life? I got answers very quickly. I didn't trust them, though. I was told by others who had connected with their guides to not ask questions about my own future because "it would be inaccurate and unreliable". Their warnings turned out to be founded as I ran into my own ego whenever I tried to get future information for my self. However, just because I knew not to trust the information, didn't mean I didn't ask anyway. I knew

  Exhaustion : "This is the portrait of one whose whole life energy has been depleted in his efforts to keep fueling the enormous and ridiculous machine of self-importance and productivity. He has been so busy "keeping it all together" and "making sure everything runs smoothly", that he has forgotten to really rest. No doubt he can't allow himself to be playful. To abandon his duty for a trip to the beach could mean the whole structure might come tumbling down. The message of this card is not just about being a workaholic, though. It is about all the ways in which we set up safe but unnatural routines for ourselves and, by doing so, keep the chaotic and spontaneous away from our doors. Life isn't a business to be managed, it's a mystery to be lived. It's time to tear up the time-card, break out of the factory, and take a little trip into the uncharted. Your work can flow more smoothly from a relaxed state of mind". ~ OSHO Z