Living Life in Between

80AD I have recalled pieces of this life at least six times since my first memory of it. This account will be of that first memory. It was spontaneous and came to me in meditation quite unexpectedly. At first I saw myself. I was a small child. I was maybe six or seven years old with long brown hair. The image I got in my mind looked like that of a wild child. I was wearing animal skin-type clothing that was short sleeved and dirty with holes and worn spots in it. My hair was long and knotted like it had never seen a comb. My face was dirty and I looked like I had been crying. I asked the questions where and when. I got Romania and the year 80AD. As I looked more closely at the life I saw where I was standing. Around me I saw small fires smoldering. It looked like they were the remains of houses. I could see bodies of men, women and children lying here and there. They had been brutally killed. Most had bloody heads and some had no head at all. The emotion with the scene was on

I have remembered many past lives in my quest for knowledge. Some came about spontaneously, while others were found during auditing sessions. I even found one during a hypnosis session. Lately I have wanted to write down all my past lives in order from my very first memory to my most recent. I am going to limit the lives on the time line to my Earth lives because I have remembered lives where I was most obviously not on Earth and feel those dates/times will only confuse the time line. For the first part of the time line I am going to start with those lives I have remembered that are the farthest back, so those during BCE (Before Current Era or Before Christian Era) or the years before Christ's birth. BCE is the opposite from AD (meaning Anno Domini or In the year of the Lord ) when it comes to how the dating works. Instead of the years counting up from 1 like they do in AD time lines, the years actually count down from as far back in the past as the time the of man's fir

As I was reading an article about a baby girl that was abducted from her home in Missouri at the beginning of the month, I got some vivid images and information. This hasn't happened to me very often, and only one other time has it been so vivid. I first saw a tree. It was tall enough that I would have to look up to see the foliage. I then knew the baby girl was under the tree. I got a strong emotional sensation that emanated from the pit of my stomach. This is a gut reaction I will often get when I know I am connected with spirit. I felt sad and anxious at the same time. The feeling continued and I could not avoid the images that came next. I saw more of the scenery. The tree had other trees around it. I saw a very old wooden fence that had holes in it and looked rotten. I saw weathered boards on the ground under the trees and a shed on my left with a cracked or broken window. All looked very old and rotten, as if abandoned by whomever owned it. I also saw some overgrown shrub

My new guides have been challenging me in a familiar way. Their words are easily drowned out by my daily routine but they still get through. They are masters of getting messages through to even the deafest of us! In the beginning of the week my husband left for a business trip that took him to the Northwestern region of the country - Washington state. He was gone for four days and three nights. I was not very happy about it. I have difficulty handling life at home without his help. I had to do it, though, and so I just got over the disappointment, determined to get through it unscathed. Surprisingly enough, the days and nights went by without incident. I felt calmer than normal when I was home and more at ease. It was a nice reprieve - not at all what I expected. With more time to be alone in the evenings and less stress at home to preoccupy me, I noticed my thoughts being interrupted more often than usual. The interesting thing about this is that the types of things being said to

I decided to go to a local spiritual seeker group meeting yesterday. I had a feeling that it would be similar to a past group I was part of but I went anyway to meet the people and see for myself. I would rate my experience as three out of five stars. In other words, mediocre at best. The dynamics of the group were interesting. There seemed to be no set leader. Myself being one who tends to take the lead when there is no obvious leader, found that there was one other person in the group who, like myself, tended to take the lead when it was their time to speak. There was also general disagreement on the topic. The topic was spirit guides. Each person had their own idea of what a spirit guide was based upon their experience but no there was no general consensus one what a guide was. Me and two others in the group all had very different ideas on what one was. I kept my opinion to myself for the most part and spent much of the meeting observing the dynamics of the group and the personali

The feeling I am talking about is the excited-for-no-reason feeling. It came back earlier this week after being gone or maybe just unnoticeable for a few weeks. I am sure it was there all along but with going back to work and the stresses related to that, I haven't had time to notice it. This time the feeling has been accompanied by a feeling of dread. Not a really negative feeling really, but more of a "oh no!" feeling sorta like anticipation or maybe fear. It is hard to explain. Along with the recognition of these feeling I got the thought that maybe the changes coming into my life are a bit scary but good overall. I had an unexpected reading this last week by a friend of mine. She gave me a message from one of my guides. This is a female guide who I noticed around me about two weeks ago. She doesn't say much but I get a visual of her - tall, thin with thick blonde hair to her shoulders. She seems very wise and older than most of my guides seem, more like in her