Living Life in Between

All day today I have been "talking" with my guide. I'm not sure whether it is Steven. I really am not sure who it is except to say it is me . In fact, I am talking to him in my mind as if he was always there, always a part of me. Like an old friend who I have not seen in a while and am catching up with. I haven't had this frequent of communication with my guide in many, many years. It is odd but then again, it isn't. It started this morning, well more like last night. I slept wonderfully. A deep, restful sleep but dream-filled. Lots of conversations and traveling in my dreams. I distinctly remember talking with a man and either discussing the Japanese language or talking in Japanese (maybe both?). We were in a library-like setting. I can barely remember the warm, inviting feeling of books on shelves. In front of me was a white board. A sentence was written. I remember correcting the sentence, as if I were a teacher and he the student. I was asked to read it...

Well last night was very interesting. However, I got very little sleep. My husband was out of town last night so I thought, "Yes! I can get some sleep!" I put the kids to bed and met resistance from my daughter who kept crying that she wanted me to sleep with her so she wouldn't be alone. I ended up talking to her about "flying" in her dreams and she got interested. I told her she could come visit me in her sleep and we could fly together. That made her happy and she snuggled up with her Fairy Bear and went to sleep. Once I put my 2yr old to bed I  decided to settle down and do a quick healing session on myself since my guides told me that I'm "blocked". This was at 9 p.m. I was feeling unsettled and could not get my thoughts under control. I felt uncentered, too, so I kept trying to relax. When I looked to find my guides, I felt them near but they would not speak. This usually indicates that they are waiting for something to change in me, ...

As fast as the obsession with astral came, it also has left. I still am interested in it but I have returned to a feeling of being disconnected. I am physically tired. Today I am even struggling to keep my eyes open at work. I have a mild cold but I don't remember feeling this tired when I had colds ten years ago. The tiredness started creeping in last weekend. Monday I came home and laid down on my bed, hoping to take a quick nap, but the sounds of my children playing and then crying kept me awake and on edge. Even though my mother-in-law was downstairs taking care of them, I just could not relax knowing they might need me at any moment. So I tried to muffle the distracting sounds of my children with an audio mediation. It was nice, but my keen mother-sense picked up a cry here and a laugh there. It completely destroyed my attempt to find a little peace and calm. At night I have been meditating, sometimes focusing on balancing my chakras and other times just trying to ...

I read over some of my spiritual journal that I kept between 2003 and 2007 last night, specifically the first half. So far, astral travel has not been a big part of my experiences, at least between 2003 and the middle part of 2004. I had my first spontaneous astral projections in 2004. However, I often did not recognize them as such. However, in hindsight I recognize that most all of my experiences were very clearly out-of-body experiences (OBEs). One of the first OBE's I had was on May 1, 2004. This one was very powerful and I remember it in detail even today. However, I do not describe it as an OBE or astral experience. Instead I call it "trance-like".  I saw my guide, felt my guide, and heard my guide. It was so real! I remember hugging him from behind like I love to do and he turned around and hugged me. I could feel it and he kissed me (just a peck) on my lips and said to me, "Do you not remember me?" and I heard his voice loud and clear. At that mome...

Something has come over me lately. I feel like I am being pushed to begin where I left off in 2007. This doesn't mean giving readings really, though I am sure it will lead to something similar (counseling maybe?), but it does mean a shift in my reality, one that includes a higher purpose and confronting things about my life along the way. I sense that a big part of this is connected to going out of my body. Saturday I woke with thoughts about astral and wondering why I had not astralled in so long. Then I tried to remember my astral experience, specifically to find them in my journal. I kept a journal from 2003 to 2007 specifically to keep track of the spiritual experiences I had. Strangely, the last two years of the journal focused primarily on dreams and astral experiences. I interpreted my dreams, discussed them with my guides and gained perspective through writing out my thoughts and concerns. I have never actually read through the whole thing because it was...

With all the strange changes that have been going in my life since the beginning of this year, I have recently found myself pulled back into the direction of astral travel. With the introduction of my new guide, Jeb, fresh in my mind, I wonder if he has anything to do with this sudden shift in my interests. As I consider that question, I hear a "Yes" but I also know that his entrance into my life was brought about by change that was meant to occur at this exact time in my life. So I know I am on track and I am assured that this transition will be a smooth one, even though I do not consciously know exactly what that means. I use to be an avid astral traveler. I was thrown into astral quite unexpectedly about a year into my spiritual awakening. I had been meditating frequently - 2 or more times a day. In my meditations I connected strongly with my guides and learned a great deal about myself. My first astral experience terrified me, though. I found myself standing near the ...

The chaotic phase I have been going through for the better part of 2013 has come to an end. Life is feeling calm. I am taking a deep, relaxed breath of thankfulness to have made it through such an uncertain time. A new guide presented himself to me a few days ago. I sensed him before then, but did not take the time to look at him or ask him his name. When I finally did ask his name I heard a name I could not pronounce followed quickly by the name Jeb. His demeanor is not much different than that of Steven, though I can detect a slight difference, mainly that he seems not as close and that he is distracted or not completely focused upon me like Steven. It is hard to describe but I can sense that he is a temporary guide, coming through to assist at a certain time and then moving on to help another. He may return to help me at another time, or he may not. He is guide number 4 out of 5 right now. I am not certain about the other guides, but 4 of them are pretty much always with me, o...