Living Life in Between

For about a month I have been seeing geckos of all sizes around and in my house. The first sighting came late at night as my family and I drove home in the rain. As we opened our garage door at least a dozen of the tiny lizards scattered up and into the garage. I remember commenting about how many there were. As time passed I began noticing them here and there, mostly hanging around the outside lights of our house looking to catch a meal. One night I almost stepped on a baby one in my house. I quickly tried to catch it but it was fast, hopping (not running) away from me like a flea. It was really hard to catch but I finally got it. Just in time, too because my 20 month old son was trying to step on it (he thought it was a bug). I caught it and cupped it in my hand and peered down at it. It was so tiny and nearly translucent, its tan colored skin so thin and fragile. I let my daughter and son see it and then let it go outside. I have always thought geckos were beautiful creatures and ...

The title of this post is for laughs. Those of you who know how strange guides can be, will understand the humor in it. Those of you who are unfamiliar with the link between guides and water, I will explain. For some reason, guides like to make themselves known when their charge is taking a shower or a bath. I have been told it has something to do with the water and its ability to augment whatever energy it touches. We all know that electricity and water don't mix because water is a very good conductor of electricity. In the same way, it is a very good conductor for Spirit. Not only is a nice, relaxing bath or a quick shower a great opportunity for our guides to communicate with us because of us being in contact with water, but we are also alone without the daily distractions of life which normally would interfere with communication. When I first met my guides, I was often bombarded with messages the minute I took my evening shower. Sometimes I was caught off guard and initiall...

Believe it or not, everyone knows to a degree what is going to happen to them in this life. Some of us are blessed/cursed to remember more than others. That is just the way we planned it, though. Our level of amnesia is individual and controllable. Yes, controllable. You don't believe me? Well, I didn't believe it either, until I started remembering. How did I remember, you may ask? Well, I just looked. How did I look? I asked questions of myself. And YES, I got answers! This is where it gets complicated, though. The physical mind is full of booby traps. They are designed to keep us safe but as a side effect these booby traps also keep us from remembering. It is only a physical body thing. We as Spirit are capable of knowing and remembering anything we like. We are similarly able to forget and "not know" anything we like. The physical body acts as a barrier to ourselves, however, increasing the challenges of the game of life. We come into the body knowing this. Our ...

     Years ago, not longer after I met my guide, Steven, I went through a phase of asking tons of questions. Who is God? Is God real? What will happen in the next fifty years? Will there be another Civil War? Will there be another World War? Why are we here? Why can't I go Home? The questions went on. I got answers. Some I have shared, others I am not sure I will ever share with anyone. Along with the questions above, I asked questions about myself, specifically, Will I ever be happy? When? What will be the happiest time in my life? I got answers very quickly. I didn't trust them, though. I was told by others who had connected with their guides to not ask questions about my own future because "it would be inaccurate and unreliable". Their warnings turned out to be founded as I ran into my own ego whenever I tried to get future information for my self. However, just because I knew not to trust the information, didn't mean I didn't ask anyway. I knew...

  Exhaustion : "This is the portrait of one whose whole life energy has been depleted in his efforts to keep fueling the enormous and ridiculous machine of self-importance and productivity. He has been so busy "keeping it all together" and "making sure everything runs smoothly", that he has forgotten to really rest. No doubt he can't allow himself to be playful. To abandon his duty for a trip to the beach could mean the whole structure might come tumbling down. The message of this card is not just about being a workaholic, though. It is about all the ways in which we set up safe but unnatural routines for ourselves and, by doing so, keep the chaotic and spontaneous away from our doors. Life isn't a business to be managed, it's a mystery to be lived. It's time to tear up the time-card, break out of the factory, and take a little trip into the uncharted. Your work can flow more smoothly from a relaxed state of mind". ~ OSHO Z...

  “Go ahead and do what you really love to do! Do nothing else! You have so little time. How can you think of wasting a moment doing something for a living you don’t like to do? What kind of a living is that? That is not a living, that is a dying!” ~ Neale Donald Walsh I asked myself today, "Do I like my job?" My answer was "No". Then I asked myself, "What do I enjoy doing?" My first thought was "Singing". Oh how I love to sing! Always have. Then I considered how I could not make a good living singing. I always think that. I probably could make a decent living as a singer, but I have defeated myself on that dream. It is a dead dream. I didn't want to focus on a dead dream, so I wondered, "What is it about singing that I like?" I knew it was the attention; the feeling I get from my audience when I am singing. First of all, everyone is listening and looking at Me . That is a wonderfully uplifting and validating feel...

In the last few weeks I have been drawn to explore my past, specifically parts of my life that I have thought little about in the last four years. It all started a few weeks ago when I received four requests for mediumship in the span of two days. When I sat down to connect with Spirit, I found myself struggling to connect and when I did connect it was difficult to get information. Something felt off , but I couldn't put my finger on it. I went ahead and sent out all of the readings via email and waited for responses. In the end, three of the four people who requested mediumship responded that the mediumship reading I gave them was inaccurate, specifically that those in Spirit who came through to me for them were unrecognizable. I was devastated. In my ten years of giving mediumship readings I have only rarely been wrong (maybe 5% of the time) and only occasionally not been able to connect to Spirit (this has happened 3 times total). To have three out of four mediumship readin...